What informs and affects you?
So, you're going to see a lot of me opening up here. And for those of you who already know me, it's going to be a lot more personal than I may have ever been with you before. It's going to be weird. If you watched my Facebook live video yesterday, you'll see my nervous laughter when discussing sharing myself with you all. I'm a pretty private person but this sharing of me is a sacrifice I'm willing to make, finally, as it informs my art.
It took me a long time to be more comfortable with sharing more of myself with the public. Actually, no, not with the public. With people I know. Isn't that strange? Why would I hesitate to share my personal life with people I know? Dave Grohl recently said that singing in front of someone one-on-one makes him far more nervous than singing in front of a stadium crowd. It's easier to be open when it's with nameless, faceless souls, isn't it? It's harder when the ones who love you, whose opinions matter most to you, judge you. And that's my apprehension. Being judged.
And that's why it's taken me so long to get to this place. You see, I have a lot going on in the background, informing who I am, affecting how I live. Now, don't we all? Yeah. But some of mine is so deeply personal and difficult that I wasn't ready to put it out there just yet. To be honest, I'm still scared but I know that I'm loved regardless. And Dr. Seuss has a great line - Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.
So here I go! Spilling my secrets - through my blog, through my Patreon insiders' community, and through my writing. Because hey, I can't afford to not launch myself into it - I'm writing both horror and creative nonfiction, after all! I'll be sharing what informs and affects me - what's it for you?